Have I Become So Distracted?

candle at night by ashley, on Pix-O-SphereThe constant pull of life. The urgent beckons my attention. And at the end of the day? My flesh screams to be entertained: by television, by computer, by books. I have so much around here to keep me busy and entertained, it's easy to make excuses for why I can't get alone with God.

I go about my days, living my own life---as if it were mine to live. And maybe, just maybe, if I squeeze some time in, I can get alone with God.

Has life distracted me so much that I can't make time for the One who gives me life? Am I hiding behind the excuses that "God knows my heart"? Yes, He does know my heart.

"The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; Who can know it? (Jeremiah 17:9)

Yes, God knows my heart all right.

This is precisely why I need to set everything aside to take time to be with Him. Not spare time but specific time.  Time set aside just for Him.

Oh it's so easy to turn on the television or click through the computer! It's so appealing. It draws me in. Just for a minute. Just one show. But that one minute leads to 60. And that one show leads to 3. By the end I am too tired and sleep calls me.

I go to bed, regretful. I wish I had spent more time with God today.

New Moon by hskubes, on Pix-O-Sphere

I wake up to begin the whole day over again. But I change nothing, and so the days go. And God is left in the background, watching me, but never invited to join in.

Do I mistake myself with the belief that He is pleased with me because He knows my heart? {And this heart has much to learn, I assure you}. Because, I really wanted to read His word and pray but just didn't get around to it? Are my excuses really acceptable? Did I really want to be with Him? Or was I clinging to grace's abundance? (Romans 6:1)

1 John 2:4 He who says, "I know Him," and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him.

For several weeks I have been reevaluating my heart and my walk with Him. I have not liked what I've been shown. In fact, my heart burns with ache and sorrow. It yearns for more of Him.

Is it really so hard to say no to the things that empty me of life? Life in Him?

All He wants is for me to seek Him.

Hebrews 11:6 ... He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

Psalms 119:2 2 Blessed are those who keep His testimonies, Who seek Him with the whole heart!

Proverbs 8:17 17 I love those who love me, And those who seek me diligently will find me.

Everyday I say tomorrow's the day. Tomorrow I'll do it right. Yet, I'm not even promised tomorrow.  I need Him so much today. Now.

Today is the day. Now is the time.

Nothing, not a thing, is more important than God.

This is where the flesh meets crucifixion. Where selfish desires are starved out. Where distractions are removed. All the things I thought I was capable of doing and have failed at as a result. Capable, as if it were my job to do.

Slowly, God is purging my heart. One thing at a time, thrown out to make more room for Him.

What are some things you need to throw out? Care to purge together?