Finding My Center in The Middle of it All

Today's guest post is by Cassandra of Unplug Your Family

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The day had been hot. One hundred four {that's 104) degrees, HOT. The humidity lingered close, stifling us all. Moods were unpredictable. Sticky, sweaty kids continuously argued about every little thing. We found short refuge in the sprinkler and with cold water balloon filling and flying, but the puppy threatened to choke on remaining rubber bits, and a whiny sister screamed as naughty brothers shot water in her face... repeatedly.

 

It's days like this, I'm exasperated. Deeply in love with my children but gitty at the thought of running away for the afternoon. Breaking free of the weight of grumpy kids, battles, responsibility, and tiredness. To for just one day, not desperately long for 5:30pm when slight reprieve comes with Daddy's return home.

 

I breathe deeply and whisper to the kids to 'wait here'. I return to the backyard with big ice cold Freezies, cut in the middle, and we sit in our hillside sand pit. The sound of silence (except the slurping of frozen juice) lures me to allow my shoulders to drop, my mind to relax. I stretch my tense neck and fall onto the sand, allowing myself to lay down on my back with my hands behind my head. A slight breeze suddenly cools the air in the tree above us and my skirt dances as leaves shimmer.

 

My breathing slows and a smile creeps across my cheeks... a tiny moment of heaven, amidst the chaos.

 

I gaze again up at the sky peeking between the lush tree top of our majestic Walnut Tree. It's ice blue today, fluffy clouds cheerfully bouncing on the horizon. And in that moment, I realize it.

 

I found my reprieve. It is short and it is still surrounded by children and puppy, and responsibility, but it's here. The kids, by now, had found a toad and were quietly and happily building a 'house' for the terrified creature.

 

I sighed and searched the light above me, surrendering to the much bigger picture around us. Boy, can the days can be stressful – long – heated. But they are also Holy, sacred, amazing, spoken over, and sanctifying. I am on a journey and God put me HERE. Right here. If I'm willing to look around me and just STOP, He whispers to me, “breathe, watch, see...”.

God is in the trees, dancing grace and forgiveness above me. When I feel like a failure, when I know I'm not good enough, when the task of raising these blessed gifts proves overwhelming, He is here. He gives rest. He is the center.  And He can be found in the small, humble, backyard Freezies in the sand pit moments.

 

He is there, ready to give Moms like us a source of life, like the ever pouring stream, refreshing, refilling, washing clean, day by day, and sometimes – minute by minute. All we have to do is pause long enough and breathe deep enough to see and hear what He offers and what he freely gives.

Matthew 11:28-35

New International Version (NIV)

28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

 By Cassandra, Unplug Your Family